Except in my version of this teenage drama I didn't have two good looking guys fighting over me or a bitchy nemeses, I was stuck being friend zoned and ultimately my biggest nemeses was myself. But did I really have the right to complain? Asha Tyson said that "Your journey has molded you for the greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Dont think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time ". If this is true I would enivitably be the person I always wanted to be in a way, although at this present moment I'm not sure who that is. I had made so many mistakes in my 19 years and I didn't know how I was suppose to go about rectifying them. I had alienated my friends and destroyed all real relationships that I once had and I can't even remember the reasons. This is when I tried channeling my inner Jenna Hamilton but she had made it look so easy to apologize and be reintegrated into her friend group, but did I want to be reintegrated?
At first I blamed myself for what had became of my friendships but ultimately it wasn't my fault. These people I called my friends didnt really care it seemed that the friendship was one based on benefit rather than actual friendship, the more I contemplated this possibility the more to my distaste it made sense, these people that I held in such high regard and would drop anything for dropped me for a new and shiner version. I came to the realization that they weren't worth my guilt or time, so in my great period of reflection I realized that I might be awkward at times but I was no Jenna Hamilton because unlike her my friends didn't stick around.
But don't pity me, no that's not what I crave I opened myself up to new possibilities and I gained some new amazing friends out of this tradgic event. I learnt that you shouldn't became victim to change, you should make the most out of it and you never know you might just find you like it..
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