Been there, Done that, Got the t-shirt

Coming back from my hiatus of 7 months was incredibly daunting because I had to admit that when looking at my life nothing had changed, I had gone away to better myself..to be this new and improved version of the person I was and be the person that I enivitably wanted to be. But upon reflection, what had really changed? I'm still sitting in the same position I was 7 months ago..so the question arises did I take every opportunity that was given to me? The answer is very simple, I didn't..the fear of the unknown had taken over my senses and I was stuck in this never ending cycle of disappointment of missing out on life's greatest journeys and adventures because I was scared, simply petrified of events I had no control over. But that is what my life had became a never ending string of 'what ifs' , was I content with that? 

Going into my first year of varsity was my chance to start over, to be the person I had always wanted to be..not the person everyone expected me to. So I changed my hair, my clothes, my friends, but in the end these changes had enivitably changed nothing but my outer appearance I was still stuck in my own self conscious bubble and I couldn't find my way out no matter how hard I tried. So I stepped back, took a breath of fresh air, smelled the roses if you'd like and reassessed who I was and what I wanted. The truth of the matter is I was still trying to be the person people wanted or needed me to be, but it just wasn't who I was or wanted to be. I decided to take a hiatus of my own design, one that allowed me to participate in daily life yet still being able to drown out all the little noises and have time for myself. 

And now I'm back, the end of my first year at varsity has come and gone and I'm ready to take on any new challenges that life and varsity can throw at me. So come on take your best shot..